Saturday, 5 January 2013

New Years Ramble

Hey Guys!

WARNING! This will be a long post so if you can't be bothered to read - vacate now! (I promise I won't mind!) 

So first of all, as I do on every post I'm going to apologise. I haven't posted in what seems like forever and when I have, the posts I do feel seriously half hearted. I could lie to you guys, as I usually would, and say that school has been crazy and that I'm just super busy and have had NO time, which is true, but I won't. I have had school work but if I'd have really made the effort, I could have found time for my little blog. 

This post aims to let you guys in a little bit and to help me move on from my little wobble that I had this year and look on up! (including resolutions and shizz!) This scares me a little as I know certain people that read this tiny blog and will therefore see this post.. but hey ho! I also know that this post isn't going to receive loads of comments or gain me loads of followers, but I really don't care!! This is my space on the internet and I feeling like letting this out - so what better place to do it right? (plus twitter only allows 140 characters) 

First off, my struggle! So basically these past few months (maybe even year) have been really difficult. I've been in a really bad place and just generally feeling crap about myself and my life. I have an awful habit of getting jealous. I'm not talking 'oh I wish I had her hair' jealous, I'm talking serious envy, the type that makes your insides want to burst. Yeah it's not fun.

It's made me do some pretty stupid things and almost do some pretty serious others but I don't know what it is about New Years but it somehow gives life a whole new perspective and has made me see that I am being totally STUPID! It doesn't matter that I'm not the most beautiful girl in the world, or haven't got the most conventional family, or don't have everything or don't always get the grades or anything like that because they're trivial and insignificant. 

What does matter are the people and things in my life that are good, no not good - AMAZING! 

*que photo montage* 

All but 1 of these photos were from 2012. So despite me in my tiny ickle mind having a (excuse french) shit year, thanks to my dear old chums, they made it bearable - better than that - a solid great. 

I want to make 2013 incredible, so without further ado, here are my resolutions!

1. Stop Caring 
Not in the good way, but in the bad way. Stop caring so much about what other people think and just do what you want to do because it makes you happy. 

2. Don't compare yourself to others
Oh my that will be hard, but I need to try - for the sake of my own sanity!!


4. Try hard at school
You dossed these past three months Claudie - you know you did, and your results will show for it! This year is SO important so I really need to make sure that I do everything I can to get the grades that I need

I love blogging I really do so this year I really want to just put my heart and soul into it and start writing posts that I really enjoy putting work into!

6. Start Youtube
Ah! That is such a scary thought! Right now I'm in the process of trying to find a decent camera in order to start Youtube, this is sooo scary! I am terrified but it's something that I've wanted to do for so long so I think I am just going to have to take the plunge - AH! 

7. Do more exercise 

8. Spend more time with Friends
I love my friends so much, probably more than they realise, so this year I just want to spend as much time with them as possible before we all move on to different schools or places etc. 

9. Stop caring about numbers
I seem to look at the number of comments I get on posts or the amount of followers that I gain a little to often. It's unhealthy and makes this whole amazing this unenjoyable and that's ridiculous!! It's my hobby, so I need to enjoy it right? So I need to stop worrying about figures and just let what happens happen!

(I wanted to do 10, but I ran out of things!) 

So this was a bit of a different post to usual. I really let my guard down and told some real stuff about me. I don't know whether that's a good thing or not but I did it;) I can assure that I do want to get back to doing beauty posts ASAP! But I do want to chuck in a life post every now and again because I liked writing this a lot I found it was like lifting a weight off of my shoulders! 

If you did manage to read all of this - I salute you!! Thank you so much if you did! Here's to a great year!

Happy 2013!